The only reason I ever pursued anything with this girl was because I knew we were gonna break up whatever we had together. I needed someone to distract me through our little breakup and she was the only one interested. She is just like you in so many ways. But the only problem is that she isn’t you. No matter how many times I try to find any kind of real feelings for her, I can’t because shes not you. And I keep fucking up because she likes me more and more every time we hang out but alll I ever do when I’m with her is think of you. I can’t keep leading people on to distract myself from loving you because we all know I will never stop loving you.
I’m afraid I made the wrong choice but we both know it had to be done. I’m afraid you won’t ever want to be my friend. I’m afraid that you may think I lied every time I said “I love you.” I’m afraid that you’re gonna give me back all the stuff I gave you. I’m afraid you may never want to talk to me ever again. I’m afraid that I’m hiding my emotions too well to show you that I was actually hurt by what I had to do today.